I now have ~1450 subscribers to my blog, having gained some new readers over the last couple months when I began to make some more informative posts. Every now and again I like to make a little introduction post for the benefit of new (or newer) readers – the last time I did one of these was in December, and a fair bit has happened since then.
So. Hi, I’m Nornoriel, this is my blog. There are many like it, but this one is mine.
- -Nornoriel is not my actual name. Nornoriel Lokason is a pen name that I use which also helps me “code-shift” into Pagan Mode in Pagan spaces. As far as what the hell Nornoriel means or what the hell language is that, when I was an active member of a Druid order in 2010 it was common to take a Druid name and most people took Welsh names; not being especially Celtic-oriented, I decided to take a Quenya name to nod at the work I did with elves, and decided on “Nornoriel” which is Quenya for “oak-crowned” or “oak-garlanded” (as Druids have a thing with oak trees). It stuck, and I appended “Lokason” to pay honor to my Dad, Loki, as well as send a clear message to Nokeans (as in, the virulently anti-Loki brand of Heathen) that you won’t like me and it’ll be mutual. Pretty much everyone who reads my blog calls me Nono.
- -As you might infer from the above, I’m Pagan. Specifically, I am a weird mishmash of Vanatru, Lokean, and Luciferian, but those words may mean something different to me than how you would use them. I am Lokean in the sense that Loki is my father and I am very close to him (and am a lot like him, in both good and bad ways). I am Vanatru in the sense that I had a past incarnation in Vanaheim and still have ties there and Work on behalf of the Vanir, but I would not define my relationship with them as one of worship unless we’re talking about elf cock – I am connected culturally to Vanaheim and have working relationships with various Vanic elves (I am married to two of them who I refer to here as “Clarence” and “Jarod”, who are secondary partners), and bring the magick of Vanaheim into this world. I am Luciferian in the sense that Lucifer is my adopted father and he and I share some values and ethics and life philosophies; I am very firmly and unrepentantly on the Left Hand Path. In addition to this I am a dedicant of Asmodai, the Judge, a demon of wrath and justice, and as of March 2015 I am married to another lore demon who I refer to as D on this blog (first letter of his personal name, not his lore name) who in addition to being the great love of my life has helped me with a lot of things including getting my shit together financially (there are jokes about D being my demonic sugar daddy). So my spirituality has a few different influences on it that combine in a rather interesting way.
- -I am a full-time spirit-worker, having Jobs in the Otherworld that serve the gods (or more technically, Vanaheim and Lucifer’s realm), as well as some services I render this side of the fence to humanity such as being a public informational resource and providing divinations and “godphoning” (channeling) and consultations, and as a Maker I create objects which help people to better connect with their gods, or have various magickal or energetical purposes. I keep an Etsy shop with said items (mostly jewelry, but have gotten into making incense, candles, perfume oils, and portable shrines), which has become very successful.
- -I’m 35. I have been Pagan since 1995. I have a background in magick, which includes Ceremonial Magick – I feel the need to make the disclaimer that I do not currently practice CM, despite my involvement with the infernals; these days I primarily do a combination of seiðr and rune magick, with occasional witchcraft spells, and the aforementioned Making, and if I had to give myself some sort of title (like witch, cunning man, etc) I’d go with seiðman (ergi and all). I also do a fair amount of magick with [D’s title] as my working partner for added oomph.
- -I was born in Connecticut and spent the first 26 years of my life there; in 2006 I moved to southern California. In July 2013 I moved to Portland, Oregon, and in January 2014 moved to a semi-rural area within the Portland metro area wherein I became a literal mountain hermit till I moved back to Connecticut in December 2014. I absolutely hated living in California, and while I loved the land of Oregon, my experiences there have soured me on visiting the west coast again. Moreover, New England is where I belong, though I may not stay permanently in Connecticut (but considering I moved something like four times in less than two years, I’m quite done with moving for awhile).
- -While I married D in March 2015, I am not exactly a new godspouse. Years ago I went by Svartesol in the Pagan community and was married to Frey from 2004 to 2010 and was a rather outspoken dedicant of Frey. I burned out and Frey let me go for my own mental health. Frey and I remain close friends. But just so everyone is aware of this, I was a godspouse during a time when there were very few of us and the phenomenon was much less accepted than it is now (which is not to say that it’s completely accepted as a legit thing in polytheism), so I have a fair bit of experience on being married to a non-corporeal entity and its challenges as well as its joys (though nothing could really prepare me for D, which is a very unique experience).
- -I am a trans man – I was assigned female at birth, knew I was a boy from the time I was 2 or 3, and after many many many years of dysphoria and struggle and pain (which included a few suicide attempts), I finally came out as trans in early 2014, and live full-time as male. He/him/his pronouns.
- -I am a gay man. I have been known to make the very occasional exception, but very occasional enough that I am uncomfortable identifying as bisexual (it’s like a 90/10 split). (Note that this only applies to my sexual orientation and I am not into policing other people’s identities, nor do I care to have my own policed.) I am a very stereotypical gay man in a lot of ways, I enjoy shopping, I have a strong sense of style, I’m flamboyant, and I’m very good at being “the gay best friend”. However, my domesticity only extends so far – while I’m quite good at cooking, I absolutely LOATHE to cook and bake, and don’t like talking too much about the subject (my mom once asked me what my favorite cooking show was and my response was “…Breaking Bad“).
- -I’ve had a bit of a rough life, which I talk about here from time to time – things have gotten dramatically better just over the last twelve months, but I have been in some very dark places. I have PTSD for which I am medicated, and a few other disabilities (as well as some chronic health conditions such as celiac disease and arthritis). I was on disability pension until my Etsy shop began to provide me with enough income that I had to transition off. I am still disabled, however, and I have my Etsy shop in part because my disabilities are such that require me to work at home and keep my own schedule. On a good day I still experience chronic pain and fatigue and deal with moderate anxiety. Despite my verbosity on my blog, I am very, very, very bad at making small talk due to a combination of social anxiety as well as having brain fog from medication, so if you try to chat me up via e-mail and you find that I am not always very chatty, it is not at all personal.
- -I take my Work seriously, but I don’t take myself seriously, and I have a very irreverent sense of humor. I am the son of a god who tied his balls to a goat for the lulz and got mpreg by a horse, so there’s only so much I can demonstrate in the way of “piety”. However at no time should this be confused with disrespect. My patron is a wrath demon, for fuck’s sake. I love my spirit-family and I have made a tremendous amount of sacrifices for them, including a cross-country move and the very painful burning of some bridges. I don’t often talk about the serious side of my practice because the Mysteries are really not for public consumption, but it doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist and that everything is a joke to me. It very much is not. But I don’t believe that being All Super Serious All The Time to show how “pious” I am is a very healthy attitude to have – I tried that for a few years and it wound up creating more than a few problems for me.
- -While my entire life is bound up in spirits and the Otherworlds and the Work, I try to maintain some degree of “normalcy” in my life. I am a big fan of Game of Thrones, Vikings, Lost, South Park, and Breaking Bad. I like Harry Potter and the LOTR/Hobbit franchise. I like to go thrifting, I like to go out for coffee. I play a mean game of Cards Against Humanity.
- -I have a tuxedo cat named Sheldon, who is approximately 9 years old. I found him in September 2013, and he came with me on the big move from Oregon to Connecticut. Sheldon literally saved my life.
- -I’m snarky. I rant. I really fucking like to fucking swear.
As far as the blog goes. On this blog you will see educational posts about various topics including astral work and working with spirits, as well as the occasional personal anecdotes involving my life with spirits, as well as daily promo posts of various items currently for sale at my Etsy shop. Yes, daily. When this blog was younger, I was very, very self-conscious about doing Etsy promo here, and I finally had to get over it because my shop isn’t going to promote itself, and the way I see it is, I give out a tremendous amount of information for free, and I spend a LOT of time answering questions, writing posts that answer questions, and so on… so considering that my Etsy shop provides me with a livelihood so I can continue providing this service of information (I would NOT be able to maintain my blogging/writing schedule if I were in any other line of work and the challenges I have with energy and mental bandwidth even on good days), I don’t think it’s unreasonable for me to be making promotion posts here. Not to mention the fact that I talk about my spirituality here, and art is a huge part of my spirituality – the crafty things I make is part of my Work, and I would do it even if I didn’t need the money (and in fact used to do it as a hobbyist for years, before it became an actual career). I also have heard that I’ve inspired a few people to get into beading, which is good – creativity is a huge part of my own spirituality, it is sacred work, and I find it therapeutic as well (one of the few activities that slows my brain down).
As of late my posts of non-Etsy-spam have gotten very comment-heavy, which is good as I encourage discussion. The comments on my blog can be as equally informative as my posts. Here are but a few things you can learn from the blog comments:
- 1. If you think you have been mercifully spared from knowing TMI about such-and-such deity, someone here in the audience most likely knows TMI about this deity.
- 1a. If you are the child of a deity, someone here CERTAINLY knows brain-scarring TMI about your parent, and quite possibly participates in the production of this TMI.
- 1b. You can turn this into a drinking game: Every time someone mentions TMI about a god, take a drink. WARNING: You will get liver failure within a month.
- 1c. Rule 34 applies to the gods. (I may have contributed to some of it. *cough Voices of Vanaheim cough*)
- 2. Hell is the mafia, complete with the wearing of suits, the love of Frank Sinatra, and nobody being able to understand what the fuck Lucifer is saying when he’s had a few.
- 3. Hell runs on caffeine.
- 4. Lucifuge can be used as a verb.
- 5. Thor is about as much of a troll as Loki.
- 6. Somehow everything winds up turning into Loki and horses.
- 6a. See #1
- 7. Anything can be turned into a euphemism, such as “eating Tim’s Bits” from Tim Hortons.
- 7a. See #1
- 8. Don’t try to figure out non-corporeal family trees or you will tie your brain in knots.
- 8a. Mmm, bondage
- 8b. See #1